cheated already

I have no more interest in him nor the thought of sex with him. I am delusional to think that things will go well between us.

Sex with Mr. B was good. Perhaps, I was longing for some intimacy and he could provide with me good moaning and screaming in his wide house. Even Mr. B's cats appreciate me than my boyfriend.

I wonder when would boyfriend realized that I am cheating. TWICE. I told a couple of close friends. One in Auz, others are my nursing mates. Would he ever found out like how he found out his ex cheated on him? I think I enjoy the thought of cheating. My good girl mate says I'm just cheating to get my revenge on my boyfriend being busy.

I like him being busy and ignore me so that I can party, fuck and pop whatever I want. Immature.

Heartless Breakfast

Having noodles at wee hours with him was heartless or rather half-hearted. I did not feel as excited as before, Rose has not been horny for him since many weeks back. Life was good without him for the past few days, FIVE days to be exact. I did not feel like I need him, I felt more independent and less pressured as I do not have to worry about his actions because I was busy covering mine. I even stopped him from saying 'I love you' and his insincere words, I thought.

What has come into me? I spoke to my girl and she suggest I should share my feelings to him. I know he noticed that I love him lesser today, I was caught when I rather look at the birds flocking to the bright blue sky instead of looking at his predictable face.

I do not want more days like that. It is fake and there's nothing sincere in the relationship anymore.

he was INTERESTED

I am horny. Unwanted and unnoticed. Rose I am few moments ago. The longer we are together, we get bored of sex. No more love making, we do not even mention sex anymore due to tight schedule and I prefer masturbating alone.

The fact that I am interested in someone else right now and he acts as though he don't makes life more complicated. He reminds me of Mon, a mix Chinese-Indian-British. All macho and smooth, pretends as though he is interested in me, got me hooked up on him and ditched me a side after two days. I have other choices but they are not my type. I like smooth guys that sweep my feet off.

I know he no longer is interested in my brain, my body nor my pussy.